“I unlocked the screen to find a message from your grandma: Archie deteriorated overnight… My heart pounded. The fear I was barely containing burst through like a genie being unleashed from a bottle. I wanted to furiously rub the lamp, say the magic words and make it go away. Since I live in the real world, I said a prayer.” 
This raw and deeply personal memoir is centred around the premature birth of Archie at twenty-four weeks, which thrusts mother and son into a world of uncertainty, where each day is a fight for survival.
In these letters Ashleigh starts writing to her son Archie, revealing a labyrinth of suppressed memories and unresolved trauma. Her words take readers through the overwhelming shock of a sudden separation from her son due to the pandemic, which deepens her isolation. Alongside this, Ashleigh reflects on her early marriage, pregnancy loss and a cancer diagnosis —all of which shape her fight for hope in the midst of despair.
This memoir is a courageous exploration of grief, resilience, and the power of faith. Ashleigh and Archie’s story is at once heartbreaking and inspiring, offering an honest portrayal of a struggle to make sense of life’s greatest challenges while seeking light during the darkest nights of the soul.